Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
grateful for :
my baby my husband my dog my sister
the fact that my husband has a job
the fact that i can be home with our son
living so close to the beach
shells and beach glass
quiet crafty moments
my health my husbands health my baby's health
new clothes i got to buy yesterday
a full belly, a roof over our heads
grateful for quieter things too, like the snails on the front porch, the smell of the ocean, the bike path, the swings at the park....
Saturday, June 26, 2010
undulating with the waves
seashell scrapes on my feet
i want to feel this life from another angle
there is a dream of vibrant flowers, naked babies, heat that leaves your bedsheets damp. there is a dream of a lush jungle, the colors of certain birds, lizards you find in your bath tub. cold tile under your feet, banana colored cars on the street, a deck with a view of an ocean, a window overlooking a cliff....
give me a patch of ocean dusted with babies and children running wild. give me the sweet abandon of a life lived exactly how i want it.
this big dream keeps me going when real life comes pouring in. i think one day we will be exactly where we want to be.
Monday, June 21, 2010
seeing my husband play with and love on our baby continually overwhelms me. it overwhelms me with joy, with love, with grief for my own childhood, and with inspiration to be better and better for A
every day i think that i cannot love my husband more and everyday i fall deeper and deeper for him. men are such rare, interesting creatures: at once gentle and aggressively protective. seeing this dichotomy exist in my husband never ceases to amaze and awe me.
thank you, my love, for being our gentle, loving, awesome protector and for nurturing not just our son but me as well. you are loved always
Thursday, June 17, 2010
and i am totally cool with that. there is no yearning for any other life and that is how i know i am right where i belong.
where is this path taking me? there is possibility in the unanswered questions.
today i feel like a child the night before christmas, there is excitement, anticiaption
where is the path leading us?
Thursday, June 10, 2010
today its raining which sadly means we are stuck in the house. its june but the rain is cold and biting, no weather to take a baby out in. so we are here. the bean is laying on a stack of blankets kicking his feet in rythm to the third eye blind concert on tv. normally we don't have the tv on but today, i feel, is an exception.
days like this i wish my husband were home and we were all snuggled in bed. i can romanticize rain and cold in my head but really, i hate it. i need to be outside i need to be running around doing stuff. i need to be at the beach or in the woods on a daily basis and there is none of that today.
so here we are, on the floor, camping out.
at least with rain there will be snails....lots of them :)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
every year around this time i start making all these big plans for my summer.
plans which inevitably fall through and leave me disappointed. i am a lover of
long life lists, to do lists, goals lists and am two years into my 101 things in
a 1001 days list. i get a thrill at crossing things off these lists. since we
are on the cusp of summer i am making a summer to do list but i am keeping my
goals small. i am reminded that joy lives in the small things and with that
spirit, i am making an attainable to do list
* finish postcard sets
* get some artwork on line
* get shop up and running
* take plenty of photographs
* shop at the farmers market
* get myself, my husband and my son in a photobooth (extra credit if we get the dog in there too)
*take A camping
* ride a ferris wheel
* swim in the ocean
* make prints of my fave photos
* go to a festival
*go to a flea market
* save $3000.00
* find a new hiking trail
* sew something
this seems like a nice start....
Monday, June 7, 2010
A and I met this guy on our walk last week. he was totally cool, just creeping along, let me take a zillion pictures of him and then moved on his way.
Thursday, June 3, 2010
there has been
and toes in the sand
and walks through forrests
and yoga in the kitchen
and piles of books
and whispered conversations
and an overwhelming garden
and recipe ideas
and roadside swans
and lifeless stingrays
and parties and people
and library ladies
and hula hooping
and deep thinking
and soul searching
and a laundry pile up
and a slowmoving turtle
and a rose garden
and there have been snails....
lots of them